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I am Fat

I am fat

I am fat

I am fat.

I’m not entirely sure how I now manage to weigh 2 stone more then my pre-ttc weight. The last stone has crept on after I had my son, in fact that last stone crept on in the last 3/4 months.

My arms look like the Michelin Man, and I look like I’ve swallowed a duvet.

I am not a pretty sight. Luckily I’m not at the stage where I have to buy a new wardrobe to accommodate my ever increasing thighs, but I’m ever so close.

To top it all off, I do not feel very good, neither health-wise, nor mood-wise. After  my failed IVF I decided that enough is enough. So I contacted Kelly from Fit not Thin @FitNotThin.

Initially, I was convinced my expanding stomach was due to damaged muscles due to carrying a baby, but given that I gave birth to him nearly 2 years ago, cant really hide behind that tired old excuse, can I!? And Kelly confirmed that there is not much wrong with my actual stomach muscles. Although, she could be wrong, she had to press down through an awful lot of fat to reach them, that’s for sure!

So here’s what’s happening, I am no longer eating cake. I am not eating carbs. I am eating salad. Lots of salad.

I see Kelly 2/3 per month. The sessions are excellent and all about weights and using the vibrating machines at the Re-vitalise Studio in Hove. I’m really loving it.

Sadly, I have also discovered a correlation between my coffee consumption and weight gain, i.e. the more coffee I drink, the more weight I gain.

Goddammit, no coffee, no fags and no cake.

 

 

 

 

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Hypnotherapy at the Zita West Clinic

I was lucky enough to attend a session of hypnotherapy with Zita West’s practitioner, Maureen at the Clinic in London.

It’s a first for me, having never done anything like his before, so I really didn’t know what to expect.

I arrived at the lovely clinic and was only kept waiting for a few minutes before being whisked to the very top of the building by Maureen, where we talked about my situation. I loved the way she spoke. Really such a positive person and we also talked about her family too.

We talked about some of the negative thoughts I have about trying naturally for baby number 2, my negative feelings about my own body, and my fear of letting my place of work down by having another baby. She really did help me “re-frame” some of my negativity and put a more positive spin on it.

Then the hypnotherapy session started. I lay back on the reclining chair and she began to speak. It was very much like you see on the TV, designed to make you relax but not at any point did I feel I was not in control of my body, my thoughts or my actions.

She set a wonderful scene. I was to imagine myself on a beach surrounded by lovely greenery and a bright sunny day. The session was focused on relaxing and using counting and imagery to do so. When I think back to the day I get a really strong imagine in my mind and its fantastic! It truly does help me feel less anxious and more relaxed.

The actual hypnotherapy last for approximately 20 minutes.

I enjoyed it very much, however, I can see that you would need a number of sessions to really benefit. I really felt very positive when leaving the clinic.The session also gave me some “self hypnosis” tools. When I think about it, it helps me relax and feel less stressed about the whole baby situation.

All in all, its was a fantastic experience, but I think I need to do it a few more times.

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Zita West Clinic

Last week I met with THE Zita West at the Zita West Clinic in London.

I had responded to a shout out on her Facebook page. She was looking for a couple who would be happy to have a consultation filmed for a pilot TV show she was doing. The consultation would be free and I was lucky enough that she chose me!

It was the first time I had been to the Zita West clinic, although I do take her vitamins.

Zita West is known for being a specialist in preconception, assisted fertility, pregnancy and post natal support. She has written books and been on the TV, most recently the “This Morning” Fertility week. She also has a large range of products, including, vitamins, relaxation CD’s and candles. Her clinic offers all sorts of therapies, including accupunture, nutritional reviews, the list is pretty long!

The clinic was very easy to find as its not far from the ARGC, where I had my last round of IVF.

The clinic is lovely! It’s bright and modern inside, and smelled amazing. Her candles were burning and are very lovely.

We weren’t kept waiting long and Zita herself came and met us in the waiting room.

She is very petite.really well groomed and lovely!

We were filmed having our consultation. Luckily I dont mind that sort of thing as I’ve done loads of public speaking in the past but I think my husband was slightly uncomfortable.

Zita looked at our history and did a stomach examination on me. Her conclusion was very positive. The biggest issue she found with me is that I lack a mind/body connection.

Basically, I have negative thoughts and feelings associated with my body and my reproductive area, and that I do not believe I will ever get pregnant naturally. I have no connection with my baby making parts! This negativity is due to the horrible first encounters I had with the NHS, who diagnosed me Menopausal at the age of 31. And my IVF failures.

Zita also pointed out that I do not relax atall. Both myself and my husband never do anything to relax.

This was all good stuff and areas of my fertility I had never considered. I can action points from her review which is brilliant.Image

She also gave me and my husband a tonne of her fabulous vitamins, including her new one, Inositol, which supports ovarian function and I think it also aids weight loss! Bonus! Also she gave me a relaxation CD to do for 20 minutes per day.

Best of all, she has booked me in to see a Hypnotherapist. I cannot wait!!! Never done anything like that before and I’m so excited.

It has been a great experience and I’m blessed to have been given the opportunity to meet her.

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IVF Treatment on the NHS

This is a story about why I wouldn’t want IVF treatment courtesy of the NHS. This is my story and not a reflection on everyone’s experience of NHS treatment. Nor is it a reflection of everyone who works for the NHS. It is simply my story and my opinion.

After the outcry and attention surrounding the NHS upping the age limit for IVF treatment and the woefully poorly written blog on the Mothercare website (now kindly removed due to its ill informed nature), in which the author speaks about how no woman (with a few exceptions) should be granted access to IVF Treatment on the NHS, I thought you may all like a different take on things. So this is about why I would not want the NHS to treat my infertility, nor would I want any NHS funded IVF. Again this is a personal story so if you are going through IVF courtesy of the NHS, your experience may be very different. And hopefully it is.

My story starts back in 2009, when I first started trying for a baby. After months of trying, I took myself off to the doctors for initial blood testing. When I got the results back the doctors said she would be referring me to the “specialist” at the hospital, as my hormone levels were, and I do quote, “not quite there yet”. At the time I didn’t think much of the comment as I was very new to the fertility world and assumed that having been on the pill for so long, it would just take a little while for my hormones to return to the right levels.

I had to wait months for an appointment. When I finally got my appointment, I was beckoned into the consulting room, where there were two student doctors sitting inside as well as the specialist. He asked me what the doctor had told me about my test results, I answered him, and at this point, he turned to the student doctors, and laughed. Yes that right folks, he laughed at me, chuckling, “hormones not quite there yet – hahahah”. He laughed like I was a naive, clueless, little girl, and frankly I probably was at the time. I had not idea what to expect or what would unfold at this meeting. Can you imagine how that felt, given I was feeling pretty horrendous about everything anyway?

I was then informed by the specialist that the problem was with my hormones, especially the FSH level, and it was that, that was preventing pregnancy. He then asked me if I was having any hot flashes, told me I was menopausal and said that my only option would be donor eggs or adoption. Astounded much??!!

He lent across the desk and handed me a piece of paper, written on it was the names of 2 local private IVF clinics. He said the NHS would not treat me for any aspect of my condition because I didn’t meet the criteria for treatment and I would be too difficult to stimulate at IVF stage.Plus it wouldn’t be worth it because my eggs would be poor quality.

To say I was stunned is an understatement. Talk about ZERO bedside manner, compassion or thoughtfulness. I was only 32.

As I got up to leave he stopped me, seemingly stunned that I wasn’t crying. Not one to shy away from a confrontation, I said to him that if he refused to treat me, I would go find someone that would. The man simply had no compassion and no sensitivity to the situation. The enormity of it was overwhelming to me. He may have dealt with many women all in the same situation, but this was my life and he couldn’t even be bothered to treat me with any respect or empathy.

I eventually ended up having 2 rounds of IVF at a local clinic which was utterly soul destroying. In my opinion that clinic gave me some seriously sub-standard care, especially as I later discovered that the horrible specialist I had met at the hospital was actually a consultant there, and had been let go or encouraged to leave, due to never getting a woman pregnant. His skills and expertise in the area of IVF and fertility were clearly, nil. The man was simply just not up to the job. Or lacked the motivation and drive to get it right.

So after practically saying “ta ta” to my sanity after these 2 failed rounds of IVF, I got online and googled my ass off to find the best clinic in the UK. Which lead me to the very wonderful, ARGC. I owe them so very very much. Yes I paid them £15K for the pleasure but I still owe them. Their commitment to find a solution to my individual problem. Their creative use of drugs to maximise success.  Their extensive testing.Their commitment to immune testing too. Mr T is quite simply an angel. We are so very lucky to have him in the UK.

It is my understanding that the NHS do not test immunes, they do not prescribe things like steroids, they do not use blood thinners to help implantation etc. I also understand that they do not work at the weekend, so its tough luck if you need your eggs collected then, you just have to wait.

Once my care was passed back to the NHS from the ARGC at 12 weeks pregnant, I found that there was a serious gap in their knowledge of how to care for ladies who had gone through IVF, as I was still on certain drugs – progesterone, aspirin and clexane. My mid wife was so baffled by my journey, my IVF and the drugs I was still on that she promptly referred me back to the hospital to see another specialist this time.

This specialist, again totally baffled by why I was still on drugs and why I had been prescribed the majority of my drugs in the first place,  told me to stop taking everything, advice I promptly ignored. By this point my disillusionment with NHS treatment and care was huge!

My experience of infertility care by the NHS is very poor. I haven’t accessed much NHS care previously, I don’t go to A&E lots, I don’t even have an NHS dentist, but the one and only time I needed them, they failed me.

Maternity care at the hospital was something else entirely and I actually found that very good indeed, in fact, I was shocked at how good it was. There was a time I considered having the baby in a private hospital just so I wouldn’t have anything to do with the NHS. I’m not quite as angry now thankfully!

It is my option (and my opinion only – so please don’t take offense), that the NHS simply does not have the skills, the innovation, the ability and the motivation to treat those of us with fertility issues that are not straightforward. They are unable to think around a problem and come up with any creative solutions. It is my opinion that they are baffled by anything new, anything innovative and a little “left field”.Their solutions are very off the peg as the desperately try to force you into a “one size fits all” solution. Sadly I am left with only negatives thoughts and feeling about the NHS.

IVF is heartbreaking and scary. Its the most god awful rollercoaster ride you will ever experience. And a failed IVF is hell. Therefore IVF treatment on the NHS for me given that myself and my husband both have fertility issues, would have been a pointless exercise and a waste for all involved.

There is no denying the NHS is seriously stretched and something needs to be done, but my experience was a nightmare.

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Falling Naturally Pregnant After IVF Treatment

Those who read this blog will know that I’m on the quest to fall pregnant naturally after my 3 rounds of IVF. It would seem strange that I, having gone through so much fertility treatment and so many years of trying to get pregnant without success, would still hold out hope that one day I will miss my period and take that pregnancy test, and it be positive.

In fact if anyone dare say to me that this might happen, I get seriously annoyed. But you can’t stop a girl from hoping!

I met some amazing women on this journey, especially my wonderful cycle buddies from the ARGC. One of them is now naturally pregnant. And this is her story.

 What is your story? What led you to the IVF route for conception?

We got married in 2008 and decided we wanted a family straight away so we started trying in November 2008. I was pregnant by the February which we were over the moon about but unfortunately when I went for my 12 week scan the baby had died at 6 weeks so I had a missed miscarriage as I didn’t bleed or anything we were devastated we started trying again around June but nothing was happening, so in March 2010 I went for acupuncture and was really pleased that the next month I found out I was pregnant. We had a six week scan and all was good, so the next scan was at 12 weeks. At around 11 weeks I had a sharp pain in my left side and went into a panic so phoned the hospital and a day later had a scan to find out the baby had died at 91/2 weeks again another missed miscarriage we were devastated we then went privately for investigation and everything came back normal so we started trying again and by Christmas I still hadn’t got pregnant do I went again to see my doctor and he suggested IVF  as I was now 37 nearing 38 I was again in shock petrified and devastated as I thought I was fertile … When I went to see a consultant he referred me to Liverpool but because ‘ there was nothing wrong with me ‘ hey put me on a year’s waiting list so I would be nearing 39 so I went into a state of panic !! During this time I was talking, texting and emailing my cousin frantically as she is an embryologist and she told me about where she worked and that they deal with  your immune system and your natural killer cells and she thought it would be a good idea to get them tested that’s how I came to use ARGC

I  went down to the ARGC in the May for my initial consultation and I started the monitoring cycle days later as I was at the right time in my cycle and I started down regulating three  weeks later !! Things moved really fast I had my natural killer test done during this time too and surprise, it was through the roof …

Did you try any alternative treatments or take any supplements to support reproductive wellness?

No I didn’t take any other supplements apart from pregnacare duo (the one with the fish oils too) but I did cut out caffeine and aspartame but I have to say I did still keep having a little chocolate

Tell me a bit about your treatment and what your IVF experience was like.

I started down regulating on June 4th, two weeks later I moved to my cousins in London so that I was close to ARGC as you have to be in the morning at 730/8 and I would never have got there from my home in Wales.

Two weeks later I had a scan to see how the down regulating was going and all was good except they found a endometriosis cyst on my left ovary which need to before they could start treatment so the next day I was booked in for a hysteroscopy and my cyst aspiration then on that evening I ‘ got the call ‘ to start injecting, this lasted for approximately 10-12 days then I had to ‘ coast ‘ for two days as my ovaries were over stimulating the cure was to drink four litres of water a day plus my litre of milk – was on the loo loads then I had another scan and ‘ got the call’ to take my pregnyl, then two days later they collected my eggs. I had 26 eggs and as we were having ICSI they called me the next day to say 13 had fertilised which is good. I went to day 5 blasts and had two put back and was so lucky to have two blasts frozen too.

How long after your IVF baby did you find out you were pregnant?

I gave up breast feeding when my daughter was 5 1/2 months   I found out I was pregnant six weeks later.

How long had you been trying for?

This was the first month of trying

What was your reaction?

We were both shocked – still are! The initial reaction was sheer joy and happiness then I went into complete worry and panic as I knew my killer cells were really bad during my pregnancy with Chloe as I had to have IVIG right up until I was 30 weeks pregnant, so I phoned ARGC straight away and they saw me the next day. They started me on clexane, cyclogest, aspirin and told me to get gestone and prednisolone. They monitored my hcg levels and progesterone levels every other day till I got a heart beat at 6 1/2 weeks I was then told to take gestone but as my NK test had come back normal I didn’t need to take prednisolone at the moment I had my NK cells tested a month later and they were normal and then a month later again and they came back normal and no further testing needed wow wee I can’t believe it!

How do you feel about having paid for IVF and are now naturally pregnant?

I feel that if I haven’t have gone to ARGC, that this pregnancy would never have happened to me and that paying for my first cycle of IVF resulted in our little miracle baby girl and I would never regret any penny spent. She is our world and ARGC have supported us in this pregnancy equally even though it’s a natural pregnancy which again is a miracle and we both feel truly blessed and thankful we heard about Mr Taranissi and the ARGC

What are you going to do with your frozen embryos?

I honestly don’t know what we are going to do with our frozen embryos

Do you have any words of wisdom for those struggling with infertility?

All I can say is, I put all my trust and faith in Mr T and I did everything he suggested or advised without questioning it. I stayed very very positive throughout my treatment and I kept myself to myself apart from a handful of friends that I’m still in contact with now and without their support wouldn’t have been so positive. Try to stay away from waiting room negativity and chat rooms as they will only bring you down and make you worry listen to the nurses and doctors they are honest they will tell you if there is a problem but the girls in the waiting room don’t know your history, so please don’t listen to anyone else and believe me I never thought it would happen for me and it did!!

Are there any differences between your IVF pregnancy and this one?

No the only difference to this pregnancy is the sickness till about 14 weeks and the tiredness is really bad but I think it’s because I have a 9 1/2 month old to run after and entertain now so I can’t sneak a sneaky sleep in the afternoon

As you can see everyone has a different story and there can still be hope after infertility. Maybe there is hope for me after all?

I would love to hear your story too.

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