This is a guest post written by my lovely friend Karen, who I met when I was in my early 20’s whilst at work. I thought she was “well cool” because she can speak, like, 10 languages and she’s a lawyer!!! She wrote this lovely story of hope all about her ICSI miracle babies.
This Easter weekend has been a bit of a special one for us. Easter Sunday was my gorgeous boy’s 6th birthday. He was born after our first round of ICSI back in 2007. And then Easter Monday was the two-year anniversary of our frozen embryos (from that same ICSI cycle) being transferred! And then today, the 22nd, my beautiful daughter is 15 months old!
When I hear other people’s stories, I know how very very lucky we were to have success first time after both ICSI and a frozen embryo cycle. In no small part it was definitely down to the very wonderful people at the Esperance Hospital’s Assisted Conception Unit. For us they couldn’t have been better and I would rate their embryologists as second to none.
But I think just being relaxed and positive was a huge contributor too. How I achieved that is anybody’s guess because I am one of the biggest stress monkeys you could ever wish to meet! But I always approached the process as just that – a process. It was something I didn’t have any specific control over until those little babies implanted themselves in my expectant womb. Everything else was down to other people, medicine, fate… And so I couldn’t control/change/blame myself for doing anything wrong if it didn’t happen. And I never entered the process thinking that it may not happen, either. Again, so strange for me because I always worry about what could have/would have/should have been.
If I could only tell all of you going through IVF how to achieve that calm, positive approach, I would bottle it and give it to you all for free. But it definitely seemed to work for us. I did dabble with a little acupuncture (more on that separately). In fact less than a year before we went for IVF I was a physical and emotional mess. The lovely people at Dragon acupuncture clinic in Brighton put me back together and maybe the soothing calming effect of acupuncture stood me in good stead.
Not even Hospitilisation for OHSS when I got pregnant with my son could break my positive spirit.
So keep the faith ladies! I’m no spring chicken at 42 now and definitely won’t be going through any more fertility treatment. But whatever your age or your history, I wish you all the very very best in your quest for a family.
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Finally, I think I feel normal.
I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now. Actually, properly, sick. I still have a horrible, hacking cough but, I feel well and not unhappy.
Moving on from the ectopic was actually very hard, made harder by having to have the methotrexate injection. But now there is some distance between me and the “event” I actually feel ok. In fact, not being able to TTC for 3 months due to the methotrexate is a welcome relief and a welcome break from my Infertility. I little bit of positive in a world full of negative. I cant even try to get up the duff for another month and a half.
So thats me in a nutshell really. Not a lot to report, but I’m just trying to reach my new normal. It is also weird that I can no longer be categorised as infertile, given I’ve been pregnant twice in 11 months. That fact alone gives me some real hope for my future ttc chances.
I’m back on the supplements now too. I’m trying a new one called Macqui. Its an anti-inflamatory and an anti-oxident. Its great for anti-aging basically. Hopefully it will anti-aging my tired, old eggs!
I am still really struggling with trying to quit Caffeine. Argh!! Why?? I can quit absolutely everything else with no issue, including cigarettes, why cant I quit coffee???!!!
I’m setting myself a 7 day challenge. No starbucks and no sugar for 7 days. Do you think I can do it?
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I have been meaning to write this post for about 3 weeks. But a few things have been happening and I have been pretty busy and a bit pre-occupied more recently.
Anyway, after the “I am fat” post, I have religiously stuck to a diet and exercise plan. I have been really disciplined and determined. In fact I have become pretty single minded when it comes to losing this lard!
The diet plan was basically cutting out all sugar and eating salad, nuts and yogurt, and not much else!
Exercise-wise, these days I can only manage 3 days per week in the gym, but with the help of the lovely Kelly, I had begun to see some real results. Sadly, I cannot do any more personal training with Kelly as she has childcare issues, so I’ll just have to motivate myself now.
So I have lost 1 stone! Pretty pleased with those results. I’ve posted a before and after picture. To be honest, I really cannot see any difference but the scales say otherwise. I’ll take that!
Can you see a difference?
I still have a whole one and a half stone left to go. *sigh*
Last night I went to the pub. The whole place was heaving with families and pregnant women.
I felt completely surrounded by those lucky, happy preggos.
Some of them were smoking. SMOKING!!!!
I was so upset, I actually cried. Granted I’d had a couple of sherry’s by that point, but seriously, HOW CAN THEY DO THAT TO THEIR BABIES???? How?
So I cried out of anger and frustration and jealousy.
One of the preggos asked me if her smoking had upset me? And I said no. How could I get into an argument about this in public? How can I explain to her that I will never, ever be as blessed and as lucky as she is right now, without sounding like I’m completely barmy?
I tried to explain how I felt to my friend, who just kept saying how lucky I am to have had my son, and yes, I know I am lucky, and more thankful then you could ever imagine, but I’m sad for me and I’m sad for a future that will never exist. But most of all I am sad for my little boy, because I feel like I’ve failed him.
Anyway, this walking away from TTC is much harder then I thought.
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A few weeks ago I attended an event for mums called “Big Sunday” www.bigsunday.co.uk
Its brilliant and gave me the opportunity to do loads of lovely things like, Yoga and pilates but I also had reflexology by the wonderful @Lunatreatments.
It was only for 20 minutes but I remembered why I loved reflexology in the first place and wondered why I had stopped going? I used to go every couple of weeks when I first started trying for a baby 6 long years ago.
So I booked another appointment and went to see Selina at Gingko in Kemp Town last week for the full hour!
Even though I am no longer trying for a baby, there are benefits in having reflexology for fertility purposes:
Ok, ok! Not the most scientific of articles, but you get the picture!
Have a look at this article for more info:
Anyway, I loved it! Such a nice treatment, really relaxing and I had some much needed alone time! Its great to just lie back and relax. Something I never, ever do.
Selina picked up my lazy left ovary – amazing!
If you want a bit of “quiet from the crazy”, I would recommend this. Its good to be kind to yourself. Something us IF ladies never do.
I also booked a session for my husband. I really hope he loves it too!
If you are in Brighton, check out http://lunatreatments.co.uk/
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Now that I am no longer going through any fertility treatments etc, and I am off work at the moment, I have been able to spend the last two weeks hitting the gym, which I love.
I’m not listening to music during my gym work out, I’m listening to podcasts. I’m really enjoying this and find it way more interesting and education then listening to music.
I wanted to share with you 3 podcasts that I am currently enjoying and that I feel are really good.
“The Jillian Michaels Show”
She is an American health and fitness guru (you might have seen her on he tv). She talks about fitness, training, health and happiness.
“Patrick Holford Food is Medicine”
This podcast gives info on what to eat and how to supplement. Lots of good, healthy tips and advice.
“How Einstein would get pregnant”
Blog series by the creator of Circle and Bloom. This podcast looks at mind-brain-body connections. Really interested in this as I’ve always been dubious as to this connection.
All 3 are great and really interesting as I’m getting more interested in health and fitness.
Do you have any interesting Podcasts you want to share with me?
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