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I am Fat

I am fat

I am fat

I am fat.

I’m not entirely sure how I now manage to weigh 2 stone more then my pre-ttc weight. The last stone has crept on after I had my son, in fact that last stone crept on in the last 3/4 months.

My arms look like the Michelin Man, and I look like I’ve swallowed a duvet.

I am not a pretty sight. Luckily I’m not at the stage where I have to buy a new wardrobe to accommodate my ever increasing thighs, but I’m ever so close.

To top it all off, I do not feel very good, neither health-wise, nor mood-wise. After  my failed IVF I decided that enough is enough. So I contacted Kelly from Fit not Thin @FitNotThin.

Initially, I was convinced my expanding stomach was due to damaged muscles due to carrying a baby, but given that I gave birth to him nearly 2 years ago, cant really hide behind that tired old excuse, can I!? And Kelly confirmed that there is not much wrong with my actual stomach muscles. Although, she could be wrong, she had to press down through an awful lot of fat to reach them, that’s for sure!

So here’s what’s happening, I am no longer eating cake. I am not eating carbs. I am eating salad. Lots of salad.

I see Kelly 2/3 per month. The sessions are excellent and all about weights and using the vibrating machines at the Re-vitalise Studio in Hove. I’m really loving it.

Sadly, I have also discovered a correlation between my coffee consumption and weight gain, i.e. the more coffee I drink, the more weight I gain.

Goddammit, no coffee, no fags and no cake.

 

 

 

 

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Reflexology

 

A few weeks ago I attended an event for mums called “Big Sunday” www.bigsunday.co.uk

 Its brilliant and gave me the opportunity to do loads of lovely things like, Yoga and pilates but I also had reflexology by the wonderful @Lunatreatments.

It was only for 20 minutes but I remembered why I loved reflexology in the first place and wondered why I had stopped going? I used to go every couple of weeks when I first started trying for a baby 6 long years ago.

So I booked another appointment and went to see Selina at Gingko in Kemp Town last week for the full hour!

Even though I am no longer trying for a baby, there are benefits in having reflexology for fertility purposes:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-20980/Is-reflexology-new-cure-infertility.html

Ok, ok! Not the most scientific of articles, but you get the picture!

Have a look at this article for more info:

http://www.naturaltherapypages.co.uk/article/reflexology_for_fertility

Anyway, I loved it! Such a nice treatment, really relaxing and I had some much needed alone time! Its great to just lie back and relax. Something I never, ever do.

Selina picked up my lazy left ovary – amazing!

If you want a bit of “quiet from the crazy”, I would recommend this. Its good to be kind to yourself. Something us IF ladies never do.

I also booked a session for my husband. I really hope he loves it too!

If you are in Brighton, check out http://lunatreatments.co.uk/

Podcasts

Now that I am no longer going through any fertility treatments etc, and I am off work at the moment, I have been able to spend the last two weeks hitting the gym, which I love.

I’m not listening to music during my gym work out, I’m listening to podcasts. I’m really enjoying this and find it way more interesting and education then listening to music.

I wanted to share with you 3 podcasts that I am currently enjoying and that I feel are really good.

 

“The Jillian Michaels Show”

She is an American health and fitness guru (you might have seen her on he tv). She talks about fitness, training, health and happiness.

 

“Patrick Holford Food is Medicine”

This podcast gives info on what to eat and how to supplement. Lots of good, healthy tips and advice.

 

“How Einstein would get pregnant”

Blog series by the creator of Circle and Bloom. This podcast looks at mind-brain-body connections. Really interested in this as I’ve always been dubious as to this connection.

All 3 are great and really interesting as I’m getting more interested in health and fitness.

Do you have any interesting Podcasts you want to share with me?

 

 

Hormones

I’m fairly sure my hormones are all over the place at the moment. What makes me say this is that I have spots! On my chin and on my back and its not from the DHEA as I haven’t been taking it recently. Plus I have definitely had some angry moments recently. (mostly aimed at my poor husband).

If my hormones aren’t “right”, then I doubt my baby making capability is 100%. In fact I’m certain that if my hormones are functioning properly, I’ll never make a baby without the aid of IVF.

This is what I am doing to try and correct this problem.

  •  I have cut out caffeine
  • I have stopped eating wheat and any “white food” – I’m trying to lower my gluten as I’ve heard good things about gluten free diets or at least low GI diets
  • I’m not having any artificial sweeteners – aspartame is now banned in the US, so that cant be good
  • I’ve started taking Wheatgrass juice again
  • Agnus Castus
  • Vitamin B supplement
  • Evening primrose oil
  • Fertility Tea – it contains Red Raspberry to regulate menstrual cycle (mine has been all over the place recently – uh oh – is that the menopause looming????!!!)

 I am also exercising. I just feel that if I can make my body as healthy as I can, then things might start to work properly.

I have also been helping a friend who might have PCOS. I really think going on a PCOS diet could be really beneficial for her.

 I’ve also started listening to the Zita West CD. Its very relaxing and I hope that its doing some good. My FSH has always been bad but recent tests have suggested its ok. The Zita West CD talks about optimal amounts of hormones being released. Hope its doing me some good.

What more can I do to balance my hormones? Any idea, tips or tricks, let me know!

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Falling Naturally Pregnant After IVF Treatment

Those who read this blog will know that I’m on the quest to fall pregnant naturally after my 3 rounds of IVF. It would seem strange that I, having gone through so much fertility treatment and so many years of trying to get pregnant without success, would still hold out hope that one day I will miss my period and take that pregnancy test, and it be positive.

In fact if anyone dare say to me that this might happen, I get seriously annoyed. But you can’t stop a girl from hoping!

I met some amazing women on this journey, especially my wonderful cycle buddies from the ARGC. One of them is now naturally pregnant. And this is her story.

 What is your story? What led you to the IVF route for conception?

We got married in 2008 and decided we wanted a family straight away so we started trying in November 2008. I was pregnant by the February which we were over the moon about but unfortunately when I went for my 12 week scan the baby had died at 6 weeks so I had a missed miscarriage as I didn’t bleed or anything we were devastated we started trying again around June but nothing was happening, so in March 2010 I went for acupuncture and was really pleased that the next month I found out I was pregnant. We had a six week scan and all was good, so the next scan was at 12 weeks. At around 11 weeks I had a sharp pain in my left side and went into a panic so phoned the hospital and a day later had a scan to find out the baby had died at 91/2 weeks again another missed miscarriage we were devastated we then went privately for investigation and everything came back normal so we started trying again and by Christmas I still hadn’t got pregnant do I went again to see my doctor and he suggested IVF  as I was now 37 nearing 38 I was again in shock petrified and devastated as I thought I was fertile … When I went to see a consultant he referred me to Liverpool but because ‘ there was nothing wrong with me ‘ hey put me on a year’s waiting list so I would be nearing 39 so I went into a state of panic !! During this time I was talking, texting and emailing my cousin frantically as she is an embryologist and she told me about where she worked and that they deal with  your immune system and your natural killer cells and she thought it would be a good idea to get them tested that’s how I came to use ARGC

I  went down to the ARGC in the May for my initial consultation and I started the monitoring cycle days later as I was at the right time in my cycle and I started down regulating three  weeks later !! Things moved really fast I had my natural killer test done during this time too and surprise, it was through the roof …

Did you try any alternative treatments or take any supplements to support reproductive wellness?

No I didn’t take any other supplements apart from pregnacare duo (the one with the fish oils too) but I did cut out caffeine and aspartame but I have to say I did still keep having a little chocolate

Tell me a bit about your treatment and what your IVF experience was like.

I started down regulating on June 4th, two weeks later I moved to my cousins in London so that I was close to ARGC as you have to be in the morning at 730/8 and I would never have got there from my home in Wales.

Two weeks later I had a scan to see how the down regulating was going and all was good except they found a endometriosis cyst on my left ovary which need to before they could start treatment so the next day I was booked in for a hysteroscopy and my cyst aspiration then on that evening I ‘ got the call ‘ to start injecting, this lasted for approximately 10-12 days then I had to ‘ coast ‘ for two days as my ovaries were over stimulating the cure was to drink four litres of water a day plus my litre of milk – was on the loo loads then I had another scan and ‘ got the call’ to take my pregnyl, then two days later they collected my eggs. I had 26 eggs and as we were having ICSI they called me the next day to say 13 had fertilised which is good. I went to day 5 blasts and had two put back and was so lucky to have two blasts frozen too.

How long after your IVF baby did you find out you were pregnant?

I gave up breast feeding when my daughter was 5 1/2 months   I found out I was pregnant six weeks later.

How long had you been trying for?

This was the first month of trying

What was your reaction?

We were both shocked – still are! The initial reaction was sheer joy and happiness then I went into complete worry and panic as I knew my killer cells were really bad during my pregnancy with Chloe as I had to have IVIG right up until I was 30 weeks pregnant, so I phoned ARGC straight away and they saw me the next day. They started me on clexane, cyclogest, aspirin and told me to get gestone and prednisolone. They monitored my hcg levels and progesterone levels every other day till I got a heart beat at 6 1/2 weeks I was then told to take gestone but as my NK test had come back normal I didn’t need to take prednisolone at the moment I had my NK cells tested a month later and they were normal and then a month later again and they came back normal and no further testing needed wow wee I can’t believe it!

How do you feel about having paid for IVF and are now naturally pregnant?

I feel that if I haven’t have gone to ARGC, that this pregnancy would never have happened to me and that paying for my first cycle of IVF resulted in our little miracle baby girl and I would never regret any penny spent. She is our world and ARGC have supported us in this pregnancy equally even though it’s a natural pregnancy which again is a miracle and we both feel truly blessed and thankful we heard about Mr Taranissi and the ARGC

What are you going to do with your frozen embryos?

I honestly don’t know what we are going to do with our frozen embryos

Do you have any words of wisdom for those struggling with infertility?

All I can say is, I put all my trust and faith in Mr T and I did everything he suggested or advised without questioning it. I stayed very very positive throughout my treatment and I kept myself to myself apart from a handful of friends that I’m still in contact with now and without their support wouldn’t have been so positive. Try to stay away from waiting room negativity and chat rooms as they will only bring you down and make you worry listen to the nurses and doctors they are honest they will tell you if there is a problem but the girls in the waiting room don’t know your history, so please don’t listen to anyone else and believe me I never thought it would happen for me and it did!!

Are there any differences between your IVF pregnancy and this one?

No the only difference to this pregnancy is the sickness till about 14 weeks and the tiredness is really bad but I think it’s because I have a 9 1/2 month old to run after and entertain now so I can’t sneak a sneaky sleep in the afternoon

As you can see everyone has a different story and there can still be hope after infertility. Maybe there is hope for me after all?

I would love to hear your story too.

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Merry Christmas me.

Well a very Merry Christmas to me. AF arrived this morning! Fooking great.

Although I have my son I still feel that my body has let me down…..again!!! And it makes me feel sad and angry and teary, all at the same time. Happy Fooking Christmas!

One of my lovely followers on Twitter said that  I should look on the bright side, and that I can go into 2013 with renewed determination and start afresh. And that I shall do.

Sending out positive thoughts into the universe to all those who take the time to read my words.

 

 

Yoga and Work

I managed to get to the Iyengar yoga class again. It really is unlike any Yoga I’ve ever been too and, I think I know why:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iyengar_Yoga

Yes, yes, I know its Wikipedia, but the info is fairly comprehensive.

We used belts and blocks in this class, and the teacher accused me of not listening to her! How very rude! I quite enjoyed it, the teacher read some interesting words from Mr Iyengar himself. I quite liked the spiritual side of it. Something about, Yoga helps us to know ourselves and by knowing ourselves we become strong and happier.

When I got my infertile diagnosis, what happened after that really taught me to “know” myself. Now I know that strength of will and refusing to be beaten are integral to my personality. I’m certainly a much stronger person.

And that is good.

Someone once said to me,

“everything will be alright in the end, and if its not alright, its not the end”

I totally live by that. Love that quote.

The second big thing to happen this week is,  I went to work for the day! Eeeek! I hadn’t stepped into that office in over 9 months. Work head most certainly wasn’t on and I kept forgetting to speak! Haha! Trying to communicate with my colleagues was an interesting one. I’m back tomorrow for round 2!

Still trying for baby nos 2 the natural way.I wonder if I’ll ever get that “happy accident”?

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