My favourite thing to do every Saturday morning is the body attack class at my gym. It’s the most hardcore, energetic and fun class I have ever done and a sure fire way to lose weight.
I look like a red faced, sweaty beast when I do it but I have a huge smile on my face throughout the whole class.
I love it!
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This week I have been very excited to start seeing a Zita West Accredited Acupunturist called Ian, who is based in Hove. Who knew there was one based in Hove!?
Whilst going through my case history and hearing myself talk about my diet and lifestyle, it sounded like I really shouldn’t have any trouble getting preggo. I don’t smoke or drink, I don’t eat crap food, I don’t drink caffeine as much as I would like to, I don’t do drugs and I take all the right supplements. I’m not stressed and I’m essentially happy.
So in reality, why isn’t it happening?
Maybe I should start blaming my hubby ?
Is there really anything more I can do? Or anything more I can restrict?
Whilst all around me my friends and colleagues announce their first babies, and then their second babies.
Infertility is like a silent scream, all day, everyday.
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Finally, I think I feel normal.
I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now. Actually, properly, sick. I still have a horrible, hacking cough but, I feel well and not unhappy.
Moving on from the ectopic was actually very hard, made harder by having to have the methotrexate injection. But now there is some distance between me and the “event” I actually feel ok. In fact, not being able to TTC for 3 months due to the methotrexate is a welcome relief and a welcome break from my Infertility. I little bit of positive in a world full of negative. I cant even try to get up the duff for another month and a half.
So thats me in a nutshell really. Not a lot to report, but I’m just trying to reach my new normal. It is also weird that I can no longer be categorised as infertile, given I’ve been pregnant twice in 11 months. That fact alone gives me some real hope for my future ttc chances.
I’m back on the supplements now too. I’m trying a new one called Macqui. Its an anti-inflamatory and an anti-oxident. Its great for anti-aging basically. Hopefully it will anti-aging my tired, old eggs!
I am still really struggling with trying to quit Caffeine. Argh!! Why?? I can quit absolutely everything else with no issue, including cigarettes, why cant I quit coffee???!!!
I’m setting myself a 7 day challenge. No starbucks and no sugar for 7 days. Do you think I can do it?
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Last night I went to the pub. The whole place was heaving with families and pregnant women.
I felt completely surrounded by those lucky, happy preggos.
Some of them were smoking. SMOKING!!!!
I was so upset, I actually cried. Granted I’d had a couple of sherry’s by that point, but seriously, HOW CAN THEY DO THAT TO THEIR BABIES???? How?
So I cried out of anger and frustration and jealousy.
One of the preggos asked me if her smoking had upset me? And I said no. How could I get into an argument about this in public? How can I explain to her that I will never, ever be as blessed and as lucky as she is right now, without sounding like I’m completely barmy?
I tried to explain how I felt to my friend, who just kept saying how lucky I am to have had my son, and yes, I know I am lucky, and more thankful then you could ever imagine, but I’m sad for me and I’m sad for a future that will never exist. But most of all I am sad for my little boy, because I feel like I’ve failed him.
Anyway, this walking away from TTC is much harder then I thought.
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One of my lovely twitter pals, @SarahJLawson82, has recently posted on her blog about the highs of 2013 and her wishes for 2014. I thought it was a fantastic idea and compiled my own list. It really did make me think. I wish my highs of 2013 had been better and more of them.
Its been a fairly crappy year all in all. Especially as my IVF had failed and I made the horrible decision to stop TTC. I find that the best way to cope with this is to not think about it. So that’s what I do, I don’t think about having a baby and don’t think about never having a baby. If I did, it would be too painful.
Anyway, here it is:
Awesome things from 2013
- I continue to be incredibly thankful and in awe of my gorgeous and growing son
- I now do a job I don’t hate with every fibre of my body
- I celebrated 5 years of marriage
- I have managed to downsize/de-clutter my entire house
- I made the difficult decision to quit TTC
Get a life in 2014
- Go on holiday (I’ve not been for nearly 6 years)
- Write more
- Have a loft extension built
- Renovate our garden and erect a Summer House
- Lose 2 stone (I weight 2 stone more then my pre ttc weight)
- Do more things I enjoy eg reflexology, having my nails done etc
- Go to the theatre more, especially the ballet which I love
- Decorate Samuel’s room and theme it – pirates
- Learn to cook
Sarah’s blog is www.one-daybaby.blogspot.co.uk Go check out her lists.
And make your own! Let me know how you get on!
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