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Manchester Fertility Clinic

Yesterday, I saw a really interesting story on Sky News. Did you?

Debbie Falconer from Manchester Fertility talked about the new multi-cycle offering on Sky News.

Manchester Fertility Clinic is offering refunds for unsuccessful cycles for women under the age of 37, and for women over the age of 37, they are offering a multi-cycle option, thats IVF at a significantly cost.

Manchester Fertility clinic has teamed up with Access Fertility in order to facilitate this.

More info about Access Fertility here: www.accessfertility.co.uk

Here is the Manchester Fertility Story on their website http://www.manchesterfertility.com/ivf-refund–pre-pay-plans/

So how do I feel about this? I think its a pretty blooming good idea! Infertility is massively draining, both emotionally and financially, a scheme like this one has the potential to really ease the pressure on those having to go through IVF. 

I do hope that more of the UK IVF clinics take up this type of scheme. If I had unlimited money, I’d keep having IVF over and over again.

So far I have spent near to £85K on fertility treatment and would love to keep going, sadly I dont have this sort of money to spare again and I’m still paying this off.

Anyone currently cycling with Manchester Fertility? Get in touch! I’d love to hear what you think.

Debbie Falconer talked about this on Sky News

Debbie Falconer talked about this on Sky News

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Zita West Accredited Acupunture

This week I have been very excited to start seeing a Zita West Accredited Acupunturist called Ian, who is based in Hove. Who knew there was one based in Hove!?

Whilst going through my case history and hearing myself talk about my diet and lifestyle, it sounded like I really shouldn’t have any trouble getting preggo. I don’t smoke or drink, I don’t eat crap food, I don’t drink caffeine as much as I would like to, I don’t do drugs and I take all the right supplements. I’m not stressed and I’m essentially happy.

So in reality, why isn’t it happening?

Maybe I should start blaming my hubby ?

Is there really anything more I can do? Or anything more I can restrict?

Whilst all around me my friends and colleagues announce their first babies, and then their second babies.

Infertility is like a silent scream, all day, everyday.

I think I feel normal

Finally, I think I feel normal.

I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now. Actually, properly, sick. I still have a horrible, hacking cough but, I feel well and not unhappy.

Moving on from the ectopic was actually very hard, made harder by having to have the methotrexate injection. But now there is some distance between me and the “event”  I actually feel ok. In fact, not being able to TTC for 3 months due to the methotrexate is a welcome relief and a welcome break from my Infertility. I little bit of positive in a world full of negative. I cant even try to get up the duff for another month and a half.

So thats me in a nutshell really. Not a lot to report, but I’m just trying to reach my new normal. It is also weird that I can no longer be categorised as infertile, given I’ve been pregnant twice in 11 months. That fact alone gives me some real hope for my future ttc chances.

I’m back on the supplements now too. I’m trying a new one called Macqui. Its an anti-inflamatory and an anti-oxident. Its great for anti-aging basically. Hopefully it will anti-aging my tired, old eggs!

I am still really struggling with trying to quit Caffeine. Argh!! Why?? I can quit absolutely everything else with no issue, including cigarettes, why cant I quit coffee???!!!

I’m setting myself a 7 day challenge. No starbucks and no sugar for 7 days. Do you think I can do it?

I am Fat

I am fat

I am fat

I am fat.

I’m not entirely sure how I now manage to weigh 2 stone more then my pre-ttc weight. The last stone has crept on after I had my son, in fact that last stone crept on in the last 3/4 months.

My arms look like the Michelin Man, and I look like I’ve swallowed a duvet.

I am not a pretty sight. Luckily I’m not at the stage where I have to buy a new wardrobe to accommodate my ever increasing thighs, but I’m ever so close.

To top it all off, I do not feel very good, neither health-wise, nor mood-wise. After  my failed IVF I decided that enough is enough. So I contacted Kelly from Fit not Thin @FitNotThin.

Initially, I was convinced my expanding stomach was due to damaged muscles due to carrying a baby, but given that I gave birth to him nearly 2 years ago, cant really hide behind that tired old excuse, can I!? And Kelly confirmed that there is not much wrong with my actual stomach muscles. Although, she could be wrong, she had to press down through an awful lot of fat to reach them, that’s for sure!

So here’s what’s happening, I am no longer eating cake. I am not eating carbs. I am eating salad. Lots of salad.

I see Kelly 2/3 per month. The sessions are excellent and all about weights and using the vibrating machines at the Re-vitalise Studio in Hove. I’m really loving it.

Sadly, I have also discovered a correlation between my coffee consumption and weight gain, i.e. the more coffee I drink, the more weight I gain.

Goddammit, no coffee, no fags and no cake.

 

 

 

 

Smoking Preggos

Last night I went to the pub. The whole place was heaving with families and pregnant women.

I felt completely surrounded by those lucky, happy preggos.

Some of them were smoking. SMOKING!!!!

I was so upset, I actually cried. Granted I’d had a couple of sherry’s by that point, but seriously, HOW CAN THEY DO THAT TO THEIR BABIES???? How?

So I cried out of anger and frustration and jealousy.

One of the preggos asked me if her smoking had upset me? And I said no. How could I get into an argument about this in public? How can I explain to her that I will never, ever be as blessed and as lucky as she is right now, without sounding like I’m completely barmy?

I tried to explain how I felt to my friend, who just kept saying how lucky I am to have had my son, and yes, I know I am lucky, and more thankful then you could ever imagine, but I’m sad for me and I’m sad for a future that will never exist. But most of all I am sad for my little boy, because I feel like I’ve failed him.

Anyway, this walking away from TTC is much harder then I thought.

Reflexology

 

A few weeks ago I attended an event for mums called “Big Sunday” www.bigsunday.co.uk

 Its brilliant and gave me the opportunity to do loads of lovely things like, Yoga and pilates but I also had reflexology by the wonderful @Lunatreatments.

It was only for 20 minutes but I remembered why I loved reflexology in the first place and wondered why I had stopped going? I used to go every couple of weeks when I first started trying for a baby 6 long years ago.

So I booked another appointment and went to see Selina at Gingko in Kemp Town last week for the full hour!

Even though I am no longer trying for a baby, there are benefits in having reflexology for fertility purposes:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-20980/Is-reflexology-new-cure-infertility.html

Ok, ok! Not the most scientific of articles, but you get the picture!

Have a look at this article for more info:

http://www.naturaltherapypages.co.uk/article/reflexology_for_fertility

Anyway, I loved it! Such a nice treatment, really relaxing and I had some much needed alone time! Its great to just lie back and relax. Something I never, ever do.

Selina picked up my lazy left ovary – amazing!

If you want a bit of “quiet from the crazy”, I would recommend this. Its good to be kind to yourself. Something us IF ladies never do.

I also booked a session for my husband. I really hope he loves it too!

If you are in Brighton, check out http://lunatreatments.co.uk/

IVF Number 4

I didn’t really tell anyone I was having IVF number 4. and I especially haven’t really discussed it with anyone as it was a total and utter disaster from start to finish.

I don’t even know where to start.

The bottom line is that my already compromised “fertility” has completely fallen off a cliff and my baby making days are over.

I produced only 2 eggs on this round, having always produced 7 in the last 3 rounds, therefore my 2 pathetic little eggs were not given the opportunity to go blastocysts, as, what would be the point?

But if your eggs don’t develop to blasto’s, how will you ever know that they would have made it that far anyway? This just makes the 2WW even more torturous and quite frankly, an utter waste of time and emotions and hope.

So now what? I’m done with this hideous roller coaster and I’m done being sad all the time. I cant continue to spend ever second of every hour thinking about my lack of fertility and I cant keep hemorrhaging money trying to make this work, nor can I bankrupt us in the process.

Time to face facts – I’m never having another baby, I better just get on with my life instead of it being perpetually on hold.

And with this in mind,  I quit my job on Monday.

I’m now enjoying some time off work and spending as much time as I can with my darling baby boy. I’m drinking a lot of coffee and not taking a million and one supplements!

So now what do I do with my life?